New Years Resolution for 2019

Prepping for the New Years Resolution

I have been thinking about this and have noticed that when I stick to actual doable things I can do it.   So Self Care again. 

The first year I did a self care year it was focusing on my face.  It is what is seen by others and really just a little bit of care goes a long way.    It also helps me feel better about myself.  Cleansing and moisturizing helped so much I did not need foundation as much.  the hard part was finding a skin care that worked for me.   So many creams burned my skin which is why it took so long to focus on me.  Shea Butter is not my friend I react to it with blisters.  Try finding a skin cream without this miracle ingredient.  So I mix my own oils a lot of the time.  I do like some of the Korean things but much of it is super harsh.  unless one has bad acne there is no need of charcoal.   Also skip the snail snot thanks.

The second was inspired by having walked on hot pavement and burning my paws to blistery scars.  The problem is I do not feel heat so I did not notice it was too hot to stand on it just felt comfortable, a nice warm surface.  So next time you see that ad 'if you cannot put your hand on the pavement for 30 seconds don't expect your dog to walk on it.'   I easily fry my feet.  I spent a year in moisturizing booties and the foot peel treatments.  Those little things are amazing and it is weirdly fun to see all the skin peel off.

Third year I saw a video on the rice water for hair and wanted to see if it really worked.   OMG!   my hair is thicker.  I was not expecting that.  It did grow faster than usual and noticeably. It also got super soft.   I was told it did not work for others though.   It was a bit fiddly making.  towards the end I was actually spraying it with Saki.   Saki is good as a skin tonic too.


This year I will be focusing on my spirit.   That seems to be where I am being directed to work.  First part is getting rid of negativity.  which I am already working on.  I feel like I have come full circle.  I am starting to pick up on resonating energies again.  I am being directed to subjects I started to study in massage school. I am feeling like blocks are being moved. 

I have even been working on my photography again.   The depression has been easing up. 

I have found a new circle, I am still finding cats that need care and funds for vetting will always be in need.

So

To a bright New Year.

Cheers

Coming out of the funk

M'Agnes beautiful on a beautiful day

I have noticed that I am coming out of my funk.

I really think the catalyst was Aschenputtel.  With her adoption I seem to have let go of what I thought I had let go of.  Aschen was M'Agnes all over. Her purrsonality as well as her looks.   Letting her go was hard but I felt good. I was very careful on who got her too.

Aschen checking the merchandise

 I really think one of the ladies trying to adopt her was the one who dumped her as a young mom in the first place.   No, ma'am you said all the wrong things.  Especially on what you called her -which was the name in the note left on the box that held the kittens in front of the door.  Sweetie was not the name on the placard. So when you said you wanted to adopt "Sweetie" it was a dead give-away.

Aschen making sure the office is in order

I know that Aschen's adoption was a spur of the moment off chance as the Gentleman usually did not shop in my store.   He had just dropped in to get something for his dog Sophia.   Aschen was holding court on the counter.  He said all the right things.   He was ready with a vet and more than willing to go to HER vet.   References would be available.

New Daddy!

I was standing there in shock to be honest.   He was perfect.  My instincts said yes.  Aschen was all over him. So I let her go.  I get updates. He brings her in for pawdicures.  He bought her at least 5 towers. He takes her with him between 2 houses.  One having 3 floors and a wood stair that she gets to race up and down.  He found a picture of his other Siamese that his children grew up with.   I almost thought it was Aschen.   Her name is now Mia.

Yes we took this too to the new house.

Back to the funk issue.   I noticed that I was dealing with depression after the loss of M'Agnes and Lusitania.  I lost both of them too soon after Robber went to cancer.It was really hard to work on the calendars just taking pictures and looking at them was enough to crush me.   I have yet to go back to M'Agnes' beach. 

  

Lately I have been getting energy again.  I am taking pictures of more than sunsets.   I am starting to post pictures again.   I have been more upbeat.  I am starting to look forward to things again.   

So I really think it was the adoption of the last two rescues that has helped me.   

The grey kitten started the flow and Aschen broke the dam.

Turmeric adventures

the other week I was playing with turmeric.   I have had a bag of the powder for quite some time.  I usually use it on my teeth or a face mask to help with whatever sun damage I have.  Not much anymore as I am rarely out during the burning time. 

While thumbing through YouTube I came across a lady who was using it in her hair. She seemed to think it would help her maintain her blond.  Sorry it might temporarily dye your cottons but it will quickly disappear from a protein base.    On further curious ramblings in YT i found other things about the use of Turmeric in hair.    Seems it was/is used by a certain sect of women to gain second sight.  Thing is these women go bald.

Being the curious cat that I am I finally decided to play with it as a ONE time thing.  I mixed up the Turmeric powder with some honey and plastered it in my hair and let it set for an hour. 

On rinsing it out I had a lot of fallout and my hair was extremely dry.   Ummm I love my hair this is not good! I did not think the damage would be so fast!   So oil to the rescue.  My hair was so dry I was adding more oil all week and it never once looked or felt oily.  I was not lightly putting it on either.   I had at least a full ounce in from the beginning.

Did not think anymore on it other than NEVER AGAIN!  After a couple of days I realized my dreams were weird. Don't really remember them now but they struck me as being very different.  It was not till I wanted desperately to work with one of my bonsai trees that it kicked in that I was reacting to the turmeric I had forgotten about.   I felt the tree, It was calling to me.  I went outside in the night for a rock for the tree to rest on.  I reached behind me and set my hand on a rock and brought it in to clean.  While washing the rock I felt it's pain.  I felt where it had been hacked and cut. I started crying for the rocks pain.  I had never felt vibrations that strongly before.    The rock was quartz and I could see that someone had hacked the crystals away and then tossed the mother rock away like trash after her babies were ripped away.  She is now on a stand by my fish tank.

Do I regret the experience? No.  Will I do this again? Yeah NOpe.

Glow

A while back I had an Idea

I kept seeing the pictures of glowing driveways that looked like rivers of stars.  So gorgeous and finally I went searching for the pebbles that made the glow.  

I tried some rock in an aquarium shop that had a natural phosphorescence. While I love looking at them I quickly realized that it would be way way to expensive for those rocks to have been used.   With an amazon search I found the plastic pebbles I could buy them by the pound at a fairly reasonable price so I ordered a bag of blue.  I played with the pebbles for a bit and started popping them in jars and other votive holder. I set many around on shelves and scattered some on the floor for the cats to play with.  I noticed the glow when I walked in the dark house  and they made me smile.  I put little votives  near the light switches.  I set them in areas where they could mark tripping hazards.

 most I ended up giving as gifts. 

I ordered another bag this time in white.  This bag was a little disappointing 

the bag was ripped open and the pebbles were scattered all over the shipping box. But that is something else. 

I think I will make a YT tutorial on this.  I was surprised that I could catch the glow with my camera.

should I or shouldn't I ?

I have been thinking of working more on my YT channel.  There is an infomercial on hope to make money which would be lovely problem is it is not a cheap investment.   basically $1k but if you can get a good following there is a chance of really awesome income.  Sadly I am going to have to let this opportunity pass. 

 Between depression and the lack of inspiration I am currently dealing with  I think this will go the same way my massage career went.  Somehow I just don't see me making money in this area of my life.


there are things I am passionate about. cats being one of them. My creativity has been in such a funk lately! 
I have been trying to get the cats to model for mebut Olwen is the only one putting up with it and even then for all his gorgeous fur He is not the model that M'Agnes was. 


Oliver is much more photogenic but he is rarely around for pictures.And this boy is such a scraggly mess!   at least his fur is finally growing back.   Maybe next year he will have a full coat.  Canyon is gorgeous and has potential.

thought and updates

I have been feeling the spirit of Isolde watching me a lot lately.  Isolde is the one I lost when M'Agnes came into my life.  

Isolde will always be special, she was my first as it were.   She was suppose to be my roommates cat but she always followed me.  She would curl up in my bed and slide her paw into my hand as we slept.  She was my purrfect little model and would strike the pose whenever she saw the camera in hand.   She helped me knit, she would curl up in the middle of a hank of wool and slap down the sticky bits as I was rolling it into a ball.   Her look of betrayal when we got the swift was epic.  Needless to say I did not use the swift around her.   

Isolde is the reason I ended up with so many cats around me.   She could no tolerate being a singleton.  She always had to have other cats around her.  if there were none in the house she would seek out neighborhood cats.  

Right now I feel like I am waiting for something but I don't know what it is.   Just something is about to happen.  The edge of chaos is near.   I am trying to take better care of myself  I have started taking care of my skin first now I am doing rice rinses on my hair.   It has gotten longer and thicker than ever.   oddly it is now also super wavy!  recently I started to work on my nails and have seen the improvement.   The ridges are gone the 'hangnails' are minimal.  They have not noticeably grown but they are denser and less inclined to snag.

I am loving Live love polish even if they are more expensive than I would like.   thing is it is worth it as the polish stays on my nails longer than a few hours.  They also have fun formulas like the thermals.  with how my circulation is I can see which fingers are colder than others as the thermal shifts.

Long time no post

I need to get better at this.   I have been dealing with depression and between the mental exhaustion of work and the need for sleep I have been not able to write.

I have been trying to save the cats in the parking lot at work this is Lui.  he is thankfully safe.   I got him to a lady that is super happy to have him in her yard and hopes to eventually lure him in. He was the last one.  As of this minute my colony at work is gone.  All my lovely black kittens are missing.

Cobweb is safe and is being spoiled

not the best picture I admit but she was too busy to sit still. 

The little Siamese that looked like a clone of M'Agnes is adopted.  That was so hard to let her go.   But her new dad is spoiling her rotten.  She has at least 7 towers whatever she wants to eat and a vacation home.


I will write again later.