should I or shouldn't I ?

I have been thinking of working more on my YT channel.  There is an infomercial on hope to make money which would be lovely problem is it is not a cheap investment.   basically $1k but if you can get a good following there is a chance of really awesome income.  Sadly I am going to have to let this opportunity pass. 

 Between depression and the lack of inspiration I am currently dealing with  I think this will go the same way my massage career went.  Somehow I just don't see me making money in this area of my life.


there are things I am passionate about. cats being one of them. My creativity has been in such a funk lately! 
I have been trying to get the cats to model for mebut Olwen is the only one putting up with it and even then for all his gorgeous fur He is not the model that M'Agnes was. 


Oliver is much more photogenic but he is rarely around for pictures.And this boy is such a scraggly mess!   at least his fur is finally growing back.   Maybe next year he will have a full coat.  Canyon is gorgeous and has potential.