Glow

A while back I had an Idea

I kept seeing the pictures of glowing driveways that looked like rivers of stars.  So gorgeous and finally I went searching for the pebbles that made the glow.  

I tried some rock in an aquarium shop that had a natural phosphorescence. While I love looking at them I quickly realized that it would be way way to expensive for those rocks to have been used.   With an amazon search I found the plastic pebbles I could buy them by the pound at a fairly reasonable price so I ordered a bag of blue.  I played with the pebbles for a bit and started popping them in jars and other votive holder. I set many around on shelves and scattered some on the floor for the cats to play with.  I noticed the glow when I walked in the dark house  and they made me smile.  I put little votives  near the light switches.  I set them in areas where they could mark tripping hazards.

 most I ended up giving as gifts. 

I ordered another bag this time in white.  This bag was a little disappointing 

the bag was ripped open and the pebbles were scattered all over the shipping box. But that is something else. 

I think I will make a YT tutorial on this.  I was surprised that I could catch the glow with my camera.

should I or shouldn't I ?

I have been thinking of working more on my YT channel.  There is an infomercial on hope to make money which would be lovely problem is it is not a cheap investment.   basically $1k but if you can get a good following there is a chance of really awesome income.  Sadly I am going to have to let this opportunity pass. 

 Between depression and the lack of inspiration I am currently dealing with  I think this will go the same way my massage career went.  Somehow I just don't see me making money in this area of my life.


there are things I am passionate about. cats being one of them. My creativity has been in such a funk lately! 
I have been trying to get the cats to model for mebut Olwen is the only one putting up with it and even then for all his gorgeous fur He is not the model that M'Agnes was. 


Oliver is much more photogenic but he is rarely around for pictures.And this boy is such a scraggly mess!   at least his fur is finally growing back.   Maybe next year he will have a full coat.  Canyon is gorgeous and has potential.

thought and updates

I have been feeling the spirit of Isolde watching me a lot lately.  Isolde is the one I lost when M'Agnes came into my life.  

Isolde will always be special, she was my first as it were.   She was suppose to be my roommates cat but she always followed me.  She would curl up in my bed and slide her paw into my hand as we slept.  She was my purrfect little model and would strike the pose whenever she saw the camera in hand.   She helped me knit, she would curl up in the middle of a hank of wool and slap down the sticky bits as I was rolling it into a ball.   Her look of betrayal when we got the swift was epic.  Needless to say I did not use the swift around her.   

Isolde is the reason I ended up with so many cats around me.   She could no tolerate being a singleton.  She always had to have other cats around her.  if there were none in the house she would seek out neighborhood cats.  

Right now I feel like I am waiting for something but I don't know what it is.   Just something is about to happen.  The edge of chaos is near.   I am trying to take better care of myself  I have started taking care of my skin first now I am doing rice rinses on my hair.   It has gotten longer and thicker than ever.   oddly it is now also super wavy!  recently I started to work on my nails and have seen the improvement.   The ridges are gone the 'hangnails' are minimal.  They have not noticeably grown but they are denser and less inclined to snag.

I am loving Live love polish even if they are more expensive than I would like.   thing is it is worth it as the polish stays on my nails longer than a few hours.  They also have fun formulas like the thermals.  with how my circulation is I can see which fingers are colder than others as the thermal shifts.

Long time no post

I need to get better at this.   I have been dealing with depression and between the mental exhaustion of work and the need for sleep I have been not able to write.

I have been trying to save the cats in the parking lot at work this is Lui.  he is thankfully safe.   I got him to a lady that is super happy to have him in her yard and hopes to eventually lure him in. He was the last one.  As of this minute my colony at work is gone.  All my lovely black kittens are missing.

Cobweb is safe and is being spoiled

not the best picture I admit but she was too busy to sit still. 

The little Siamese that looked like a clone of M'Agnes is adopted.  That was so hard to let her go.   But her new dad is spoiling her rotten.  She has at least 7 towers whatever she wants to eat and a vacation home.


I will write again later.








 

A cheap ant barrier for the cats bowl.

I was looking at the platter from my meal and thought it was purrfect for an ant barrier.    
Platter and Idea
 
this should work 
 
a little tape 
 
yes that works 
some soapy water 
 
here you go Madelyn

Nightmare.

OK it has been a long time since I have had nightmares so I will write this down to get it out of my head.



It is a work nightmare, the building is changed so is the city.  The store has a second strorey and our parking lot is gone.

In the dream one of my coworkers is acting weird and I am trying to figure out what is going on.  She had met a new customer and was I guess influenced by her. She disappears from the store and I have no idea when or where she has gone.
The next shift I am told she is missing still but no one is worried.  Later in the the shift she appears acting almost stoned. She is with the woman who is acting very scary.  As it is almost time to close I tell them to leave.  Instead they go upstairs  where they had been hiding.

I try to call the boss but no phone will work.

For some reason I grab  the tills and bring them home.  I am still trying to call the boss. I try other phones and none will work. I keep getting gibberish.

I woke up or was woken up around here.  Still trying to call someone and count the store tills down. OK is this not a nightmare?


Sorry I have not been posting.  So much has happened.  I lost little Joseph and found out Aisha has Corona Virus.  I am also watching a cat for a friend.....like I need more cats.

There is another colony forming at work.  One cat looks dead on like Robber I call him Hickory.  Another has injured legs. I have been trying to trap them not that I know what to do if I do catch them.  The vet is on medical leave and has been for months.   But that is the vet that does the snips.  I guess if I catch the injured one I can take it to my regular vet and see what they say.




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Depression

I am very tired of being depressed.
I know I am not the only one who has bouts of depression and that almost everyone has dealt with some form of it at some point in their lives.  Lately it has been hard, I get tired of things, apathetic to many daily duties.  Exhausted with dealing with the public.  I hate the constant attacks, the irritation of being yelled at for doing your job.
Yes, I am aware of what is going on and I have a handle on it.  You do not need to micro manage me.
In other words if you want to treat me like an idiot I WILL give you an idiot.

I crave going back to the beach it has been far far too long..  Not since I lost M'Agnes.  I think I lost my way when I lost her. Then to lose Lu too.

Madelyn. She moved in and took over. I wonder if her coming
here was what pushed Lusitania into decline.

I have the new crew,  Madelyn and her babies.  that if you are on Ravelry you know about.  I also have Aisha and Joseph now. The little kittens that are almost 4 months old.  I also lost another bottle baby.  he kept rejecting the KMR and what little I got down him would come back out his nose.  I will learn how to tube feed the babies so next time I get one with similar problem I am better able to help.    Little Roo looked so much like M'Agnes when I first got her.  I had hopes such hope he seemed so very strong he just could not keep his milk down.

Aisha

One of Madelyn's babies, Capt. Olwen, I have found myself calling Robber.  He is so much like Robber in temperment and he is painted like M'Ags so it is very hard at times when I see him basking in the garden.. I love him like anything though.

A very serious Joseph

Capt.Olwen, Playing with Aisha and Joseph

Of the kittens Joseph, he reminds me so very strongly of Tristan.  If he was white I would cry.