Abandoned mom

Found a new mom cat where I work with threes fluff ball babies. Need to start trapping again.

A Tribute to M'Agnes

I finally stopped crying so maybe I can get this started now

For those that have followed the life of M'Agnes on Ravelry you already know she is gone.
It is like the heart has gone out of me.  I can only think she followed one of the other cats outside when i got up in the middle of the night and she dashed out to play. I had gotten use to her leaving the room and finding her in the back bird room or in my moms room as she know G'Mom will give fistfuls of treats.

But no she had gone outside and followed one of the ferals across the street and beyond. It was the knock on the door that woke me, and the animal control officer asking for me and hearing a mention of a Siamese cat.  I thought a neighbor had caught her and was complaining and I was to get yet another fine.
I followed him to the truck having a hard time comprehending what he was said while understanding at the same time.

My beautiful little SuperDiva was gone. Her life had been snuff out by a car.  The only mercy would be that it happened fast and she did not suffer.  The little kitten that had been placed in my hands at hours old never having known her own feline mom she became my baby and I watched her around the clock. I worried about her fearing she would not survive the first days, weeks, then months but she was determined to live in spite of the odds.

It surprised me how many fans she had online,  I would laugh that she had more FB friends than I did.  I would tease my mom as she acknowledged her grandkitten M'Agnes before she claimed me as her daughter.
I learned to laugh with her and loved sharing her antics with all of her online aunties.  I never thought she would only be with me barely 3 years. I will never see how dark she was meant to get in all her chocolate glory

 She would let us put silly dresses on her and would show off her pretty dresses. She loved going for walks and would come racing to me if I had disappeared, She would greet me when I got home late and upset me by waiting in the driveway for my car. She would constantly shadow me when I would put food out for the outside kitties.

Good bye my Angel, give my love to Robber, Frankie, Gianni, Isolde, and the rest that are waiting on the other side of the Rainbow bridge.  I will see you all again one day.
I will stop now as my face is leaking again.

I love you so much

Lusitania in Green

Lusitania in Green, a photo by siouxzb on Flickr.

Robert E LeeRoy

Yesterday I learned I am going to lose him. He has a mass in his abdomen. My boy is so tiny and has lost over a pound of weight going from almost 8 lbs to less than 6 lbs. I was told last time that he had one regular kidney and the other was maybe 1/2 the size it should be so I was careful about his kidneys.
 Of late he has gotten cuddly which is very out of norm for my little Rockstar. I noticed he seemed lighter and a lot thinner. He is still alert, has no weird smell, he eats and drinks and goes potty but he is different. So I got him to the Veterinarian where the mass was discovered.  I can get a referral to a specialist for a biopsy. Potentially get him Chemotherapy and 10's of thousands that I do not have later still lose him in a few months.   Having his last days scared, sick and alone.

Each loss hits me harder than the previous. Hopefully I can get my shelter built soon.  I have found someone who will put up a barn or me but I need a house on the property first.  And scary news I am hearing that pot growers are buying out the lots of land near our property.   I do not want to have to ind a new piece of land to build on.  I want to be out of here within the next few years.  Time is flying past aster and faster.

I just want a safe place for my little ones.

exploration of an olive grove

exploration of an olive grove, a photo by siouxzb on Flickr.

Gabrielli hiding

Gabrielli hiding, a photo by siouxzb on Flickr.

Gabbers

I thought I had updated, I am sorry.  Dr. D thinks the eye might actually be healing. She  is getting an oral dose of Baytril for 2 weeks. we are into week two now.  He said that there is capillaries starting to form in the damaged part of the eye.  He is very surprised and happy about this. I am to give him a call to update how it is going.

To me it does not look good, it is pinker as he said but with all the discharge it is gooey too! It is also not swollen any more, so it might have been a blister forming that we had seen that made it look like the eye was about to rupture. 
Now I am confused if she is going to lose the eye or not.

I will be happy if she keeps it and the ball stays viable even if she will have impaired vision.  I am also prepared for her to have the scar. 

I cried a bit the other day remembering that Spinneretta had done a colorway about Gabrielli and the focal was her eyes.  Such a pretty mint green.

Right now she is looking kind of wizardy with her whited out eye.