Do you ever feel like something is wrong?
That there are tensions in the air and something is about to blow?
It is O-Dark-Thirty and I just saw a tiny flash of light where none should be.
It was right in front of my fish tank. The heater not only is unplugged, it is not in the tank! It is outside. There is now no light on the tank. That was destroyed and is in the trash recycle.
The night feels weird, it reminds me of the nights when I worked at the clubs. When you could taste how the moods were shifting. Right now I am watching the shadows as the wind moves through the trees. I am listening to the cats as they chirrup at me trying to figure out why I am still awake.
I miss my Isolde, I am missing her something awful and started to cry at work today.
I will try again to sleep hoping that just putting this down will help me relax. It is odd I am in a suburb type area but feel like I am in the mountains, I really need to get to the forest or at least the beach. I have to de-stress before I shatter.