Sadness

One would think that one would get used to losing a furry loved one.
I have lost many and each one hurts just a little more.
I am left with the feelings of what did i do wrong, what did i not notice what should i have done different.

Knowing that the little one was predisposed toward an illness does not help. I am still crying, i keep going back to hold Isadora. she is looking at the door giving quiet miaows waiting, i think she is looking for Duncan and i cannot even let her say 'Goodbye' to her litter mate.
Looking back, first i caught Duncan as a sick kitten with upper resp. he also had bad coccidia and other worms. he had such a rough start i wish i could have given him a better longer life but all i could do was make sure he did not suffer.

I also need to let any potential adopters that the kittens have been exposed to corona virus, and i need to watch them real close to make sure they stay healthy.