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 i will have to edit this when i get to the coffee shop as this droid sux.i have completed my current caledar and it is ready for the printer.   i cannot get this stupid phone to interface with the blog very well but maybe it is the blog that is the issue. t

I am sitting in a coffee shop as I am not sure if I want to maintain home internet.

 At the coffee shop I can get online for free. It is slow, guess I can knit while waiting for things to load.
At home it would be around $80 a month.
I do not do that much online other than go on Ravelry, see what is posted on YouTube, check FB and watch a very few TV shows.
So $80 will get me maybe 8 hours of TV.  Somehow this does not resonate as being worth it.   Especially as I can catch them at the coffee shop while sitting in my car so as not to disturb others there.

The only real thing I use the computer for is calendars.   So I am sitting in the coffee shop uploading pictures to CostcoPhotocenter.com so I can work on the calendar.  I am missing my little Diva, it will be sad that this will be the last time she will be in a calendar as April will be  her tribute month. It still hurts that I only had her 3 short years.

My vacation was good, I saw some states that I have not been to in a very long time if ever.  I got to meet some of my Raverly friends which was fantastic.  Meeting new kitties and a few pups was fun.

I have followed on FB the travels of Taika and Dahlia. I will miss them but I am glad knowing they will be loved.

















Taika, such a adventurous girl. Take good care of Dahlia sweetie.

Contemplation of a tattoo

I have been thinking about getting a tattoo in memory to The cats I have lost. 
M'Agnes learned a trick to get treat was to press on my hand as if it were a lever.  She then started to use this to get my attention. If I was on the computer she would press on my hand and look deep into my eyes.  It always brought a smile.

I also would like a bracelet of forget me not blossoms maybe entwined with cherry blossoms.

Today  completely lost it.

I went onto The Unique Sheep website to look at the M'Agnes and M'Agical colorways and started balling my eyes out.

Not even pictures of my girl just pretty yarn and I cry. Laura is lovely and has offered to do the tribute colorway, I am just not sure when I am going to be able to really look at the pictures and choose one for the color.  I did ask her fans and i think they are n the same state I am in and not able to look at the pictures without crying.

Within a few seconds I was fending off Lu as she wanted me to stop crying.


I did hear from URRKN today it looks like the trip is a go. I just need to know the path so I can reserve night lodgings.

PapaBear Sighting

 I saw PapaBear tonight, he is getting skinny. If I did not know that he is another FIV kitty I would trap him for neuter but I know that is why Rue died.  
As I watched him eating with his tiny ears and very round face I saw that he had the same facial patterning as Lakota.

He kind of looks like pictures I have seen of European Wild Cats,  though that s very doubtful being in California and all.  He is definitely  feral though.  He knows that the cats are fed in the back yard and that Rue is no longer defending the area, so he is more brazen than he use to be.

I wish I had been able to catch him when he was younger, when it would have been safer to neuter him. He has got to be at least 10 now!   Such a gorgeous boy.

Also, speaking of brazen boys, Esteban is running off the girls across the street to steal their food.

Sad

Yes i still cry without thinking,

Yes i still break down without warning

Yes i still feel shattered

M'Agnes when she had just gotten the coveted treat
this will always be one of my favorite pictures

this is also a much loved photo.
the poor dear was being annoyed by a dog in the park
so she was sitting in the tree till it left

I get sad when I hear the crows, I hear bells and miss my little girl, I catch whiffs of scent and remember tidbits.

I am not even sure I can go to the beach and not cry anymore.  That will be a challenge as I have now lost all of my beach cats. I ma try to take Lusitania one day to see how it goes.

I am still trying to find the picture for the tribute colorway for M'Agnes as I think her fans are waiting for me to choose even when I asked of them to please go though the posted pictures. It is just I have so many that they have not seen.  So I guess it will fall to me to pick the picture.  The request seems to be fore a gradience of just M'Agnes nothing of the surroundings so I will skim for the ones that are mainly her.

I have been toying with getting a tattoo. I am thinking of a pawprint on the web of my left thumb where she would place her paw to get my attention.

There is an auction happening in her name to help fund my further rescue kitties and maybe just maybe get a start to help build the sanctuary.

Madelyn has now been spayed and she tested negative for FIV/Felv so i am not as worried about her escaping as she likes to go over the gate to explore the rest of the house.  It is kind of funny watching her chase the other cats to protect her babies. She is so tiny and missing teeth and soooooooo ready to take them all down.

Taika trying to figure out what the clicky box is

Dahlia has been adopted and will be going with her sister Taika to Maryland.  Taika will help Dahlia adjust to her new home. Taika is much more brave and playful. I think Damson has also been adopted by a coworker. We shall see.

Captain Olwen such a trusting little man.
Considering how vicious he tried to be when he was caught 

Captain Olwen will be staying with me and Madelyn.  I always hate it when a mother loses her very very last baby. How do we know she does not miss them? I have seen other feral mom cats get upset hearing a kitten cry and go to soothe it even when it is not theirs and they had been spayed for years.





I hate being sad. I am sitting here it is 1 am I am listening to Lu snore and watching Moira pretend to sleep. And I am just so sad I can barely do anything, I have not been able to knit. I have not read, the movie I could not wait for I probably will not see. I am working with the kittens as they need a lot of socialization. Dahlia and Damson are just so shy but at least Dahlia and Taika are both over 2 lbs and are at a "Safe" spay weight. So next month it will be even better.  Next get the time off and get some time out of California were everything is a trigger.